Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Friday, February 20, 2009
Monday, February 16, 2009
Particularly this past week I have been tested. I have known what is right and watched my world of a train wreck continue to crash right in front of me and be so, so wrong. Sometimes I speak up and sometimes I can't. Sometimes it takes every ounce of my being to bite my tongue, and other times I just throw my hands up and walk away because it's just not worth it to me any more.
I am heading into the coming week already biased that it's going to be lame and uncertain...
And certainly lame.
I have to do things that I don't want to do. But I have to. There are things I don't want to say this week. But I need to say them.
Here's something I read this week:
Silence isn't a blank. It's the pregnant possibility of what is about to be born.
This is me. Silence isn't a blank to me. If anything it's far more important, and carries a much heavier weight than most other things. When things, words, moments, are surrounded by silence on either side, the merit it has is much more valuable. I don't know what this has to do with the earlier part of the post, but in my head it was all making sense and tying together really nicely. Story of my life.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Monday, February 9, 2009
In any event, most of this turmoil went on right inside my lovely little noggin, so what I was able to express verbally to the dear kiddos was fairly level headed and calm. Way to go mom! I did need to explain to them that that fellow did not think I was number 1, which was clear from his foul mouth and flailing arms. I wonder when we eventually did all make it over that small bridge and I ended up behind that very vehicle, did he look in his review mirror at my truck and see that Marine Corps license plate? Does he know that my husband would go to war to save that man's privileges to live in this free country where he can yell and honk and flip of a soldier's wife...for letting one car go by? Maybe he saw the fire fighter plaque and maybe the next vehicle accident hubby runs will be on that man. He'll be lucky if hubby isn't standing right there looking down at him on the pavement and laughing. But no. Hubby wouldn't do that. And neither would I.
I hope that man in the vehicle behind me sure feels like a big man now.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
1. I did NOT eat an entire container of cookie dough today (just 1/2!)
2. Both my dad and hubby were in church today
3. Realized that when driving through pouring down rain, it is WAY LESS stressful with good brakes and new tires. I guess I kinda got used to the whole sliding around the road thing...yikes!
4. The leaning trees on the property were felled today. (That sounds SO grammatically wrong... but they tell me it's right.) This is exciting because we managed to get them down before they fell on the neighbor's house. This is good. We like our neighbors.
6. I am starting a 3rd medication for migraines today and so far that combined with the rest of my chaotic life...has not killed me yet
7. Eric and Erin and the babies are still well...considering... tho your prayers are still needed. Erin was transported via air this morning to UCSF. Seems the babies are doing ok, but Erin's health is the one in danger right now....pray pray pray
8. I am an awesome mom. (Insert here REALLY FUN story about middle bebe talking back and that automatically leading into an ENTIRE day of manual labor stacking firewood....muuaahhh aahhhh ahhhh ahhhh)
9. The firewood got stacked today. =)
Thursday, February 5, 2009
"Gee, Meg... you don't look so good today. You feeling alright?" .....
"Why thanks so much for asking, actually I've been eating like a Tyrannosaurus Rex, and I'm still hungry and my tummy is growling so you'd better quit talking and move quick before I snag your lunch too."
This is where I wipe the drool off my lip and 2nd chin and let out a little belch. Yum.
This morning, I plan ahead. (Novel idea!) I pack a yogurt, oatmeal, and banana for breakfast and head to work. It is a BUSY morning at work. How many things can go wrong? How many ideas can be mis-communicated so readily that everyone in the same room comes out with a different version of the plan? My emails to my boss are blunt and to the point: "This seems like a good idea... (but this is really soooo far out of my league I have no idea what I'm talking about so please make a decision on my behalf...quickly so I don't make you look bad too) Have a great day!"
I have no idea how I managed to keep my head off the desk today. It really just wanted to lie down and raise the flag and signal defeat. At some point I realized I was terribly light headed and should eat. Banana- done. Yogurt- done. I take my little oatmeal pack and venture to the break room where I fill my coffee cup up with the designated amount of water and pour the quick oats in. Simply put into microwave... and...
PUSHING START DAMMIIIIITTTTT.
Please just cook my oatmeal so it's not cold. It doesn't need to be hot. I'm not picky, just a little warmth is all I'm asking. Microwave is successfully resisting all attempts to start.
Nope. No go. Cold flippin oatmeal. Not even cooked, so the oats are still crunchy actually, unless I want to leave them there for 20 minutes to take on water.
This is my day people. Throw me a bone here already. You ever wonder what God really looks like? Does he get a kick out of this? I really, honestly think he's just up there laughing at me...
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
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November 21, 2008 - WRE will go on hiatus until the summer of 2009. Eric Girard and Erin Hudson-Girard are expecting twin girls in April 2009, and are busy building a new house and preparing for the new additions. "Once we get the babies into a routine, we'll pick up this important work again," says Eric. "WRE is definitely important and very dear to my heart - it's just a matter of balancing everything, and God's making it clear to us that we need to focus on our family."
Erin was admitted today to the Sonora Regional Medical Center (SRMC) Birth Center until the babies are born. Our OB, Dr. Mills, is concerned about Erin's fluid retention, weight gain, and elevated blood pressure due to mild, early-onset pre-eclampsia. So, she's on strict bed rest under doctor's supervision until the babies arrive.
She's at 3o weeks now, and so far, the babies are growing normally. Neither Erin nor the babies are in any grave trouble - this is just a cautionary step, "to watch and wait," as Dr. Mills puts it.
I know I've said (blogged) this before. But where I lack in siblings, I make up for it with cousins. And Eric (and now Erin too!) are no exception. Eric came to be with me and dad when mom was in ICU. I told him I didn't know that he'd even get a visit in with mom, but that I could really use him there. And he came. We have each shared the loss of our own moms. Eric just happened to call a few hours after my mom died to just check in. His timing was perfect. I hadn't been able to make that first phone call yet to start to let the rest of the family know. I just couldn't do it. So Eric did. He is amazing and has been perfectly blessed with Erin as a wife and now two sweet little babies who may need to be reminded to stay put a few more weeks. They've got Erin's health, the babies' growth, Eric's sanity, oh yes and a house that needs to be moved into, and another one to be cleaned out... all on their plates right now.
So... get yer engines ready there fellow bloggers, friends and family... there's praying to be done.